30th days without my baby:( ~ Today i wake up at around 10am+ but i just gt nth to do liao zzz:(( i went to open my computer to look around lor den i saw ur blog:(( hmmm.. u seem to have alot of fun hor?? so good lor haiz.. think that wat u doing lor but so long never tok to u liao sia zzz:(( just nw after we went out with my mum and sis lor but very sianz sia:((( okay la idk wat to say liao but hope if gt thing will share with me okay?? take care!! bye:D

29th days without my baby:( ~ Today i wake up at 9am and i dam tired man!! haha.. i today my frenz go NHC to screen for his NS:) haiz.. i was dam boring nth to do sia zzz after that we went walk walk, have our lunch den back home le:) hmmm... Dear i just saw ur blog le hope you happy wor:) take care hor:) but i just dunno wat else can i say to you but i wan say is i miss u bah:( okay la later at nite i going skate liao:) Dear i saw ur post say you everyday went out until very late but i wan to tell u is you must sleep well hor!! enjoy tonite for the wedding dinner hhee.. bye:D

28th days without my baby:( ~ Today i wake up at 7.30am about i was like very tired but got no choice and have to go back to school zzz.. it very boring lor den after finish le go home rest awhile liao den go out meet my frenz go Pasir Ris to skate and was like quite nice however the floor also quite slippery haha.. Dear i just want to noe wat happen to you huh?? y you never update ur blog liao and dun seem to online huh?? do you noe i miss u so much ma???!!!!!!!!! haiz... how are you now??!!! I dam worry when days past and i hope you would see all those post because i write my feeling of me about you:( haiz.. Dear take care!! bye:((((

27th days without my baby:( ~ Today i wake up at around 10am+ because i going meet my frenz for his chalet at downtown east there and i really very tired le but i still go because i really dunno wat to do at home haiz.. when i at home i keep thinking of you but even out like today no matter i go where i will still think about you just so hard to not think about you Dear!!! how?!!! i really very miss you la and i sometime just so wish to sms you where are you and what u doing de lor but do you really very care about me?? i really dunno the answer:(( haiz.. i really super duper sad and more upset when days past:(( haiz.. dear i wish to see ur blog updated because i really enjoy viewing it!!! Dear i tell you tmr i will be going to school in the morning den afternoon go downtown east to find my frenz and skate bah:(( Dear i wish u will view my blog when u free and if can try sms abit can?? i really cannot take it anymore la even sleep also dream of u den go out/ stay at home also think of u:((( haiz.. Dear I LOVE YOU!!! okay la... i will post again tmr hope to see ur reply bye:(( Take care Dear!!

26th days without my baby:( ~ Today i wake up at around 9.30am because i need to go back to sch but i though can buy my books le however in the end the bookshop didn't open zzz:(( no choice but to buy on monday lol... After i went to play basketball with my frenz awhile den just slack lor haiz.. my days is so dam boring doing nth:((( Dear what u doing this few days huh?? i keep thinking of you sia but dunno how to chat with u:(( i really very very wish to tok with u la!!! haiz... Dear i hope u everyday happy if not i will start worry le.. take care!!! But i still want to say i dam love you !!! bye!!

25th days without my baby:( ~ Today i wake up at around 12.30pm and was like so tired man!!! haiz.. it really very boring to just stay at home doing nth:(:( ytd i about near 5am den went home because i went to skate and slack with my frenz around lor actually quite nice de and better den staying at home:):) Dear hope to see you tok about where you went ytd and what you do:)) i noe i very kpo rite?? haha.. just asking nia lor hope that you dun mind:)) Wish that you can share about ur feeling to me and i really wish to chat with u zzz.. okay la nth to say liao dear take care wor!! bye:D

24th days without baby:( ~ Today i wake up at around 1pm+ and was like so tired man because ytd i about 2am+ den went to sleep because i'm watching 海派甜心 and the drama is really nice i awaiting for the next episode haha:) Dear do you noe i ytd nite dream of you again ma?? It really so scary to me agian I shouted and cried zzz:(( is very hard to explain here how the feeling is but is about you suddenly have another guy and make me very upset dunno how to say just very very scare lor:(:( i think i really very miss you den become like this bah haiz.. i also dun wish like this but you also noe that all not up to me de lor:(:( Dear i noe tonite you going out with clari to enjoy the Christmas Eve hope to see you happy and smile:D I LOVE YOU YJ!!! Take care!!! bye:)

23th days without my dear:( ~ Today i wake up at around 12nn abd was still like so sianz man~!!!! haiz.. Dear i whole nite think of you and very worry lor:(( dun too upset hor hope u got sleep well last nite bah huh?? must take care wor if need anything can find me de wor:)) jyjy stay strong cheer up if can try go out with ur frenz and dun think too much now:)) cool down hehe.. i noe i very fan rite?? kkz i dun tok so much about that le:)) later only at nite going out nia haiz.. whole afternoon was all alone by myself again zzz... dear i wish that we can still chat more le okay?? you really a very nice and sweet girl really!!!! okay la hope to receive ur sms/ call or even at msn de chat wor hehe.. Dear i still want to say that I LOVE YOU TO U!!!! bye!!

22th days without baby:( ~ Today i wake up quite early about 7.30am bah becoz i went to sch with my mum to see the DM bah.. all just becoz i never go back to sch after finished my 'N' Level lor and the reason is i dun feel/ dun want to go for it.. lol i noe that a lame/ stupid excuse for not going however i seriously seeing no point going for that thing if it really important thing i will turn up but not for this just a waste of time only.. haiz nvm la everything over now but i feel so tired lor:(:( Dear i really need you sia however i noe is impossible nvm de:(:( later maybe i going out with my frenz awhile bah haiz.. Dear i really happy that ytd u can sms abit thx for the everything too must take care well of urself too hor:(:( hope u will keep read my blog if you free can?? i write down here is to let you noe how i feel de okay not just for fun:(:( All i can say now to you is that you are really lovely, cute and lot more others... okay la i will post till here for today tmr will continue de BABY I LOVE YOU!!! BYE!!

21th days without my baby:( ~ Today i wake up at around 12nn and actually want to play pool with my frenz but most of us forgot about it so we have changed it to tmr bah.. Dear how are u le?? do you noe that when u changed ur blog to private it let me think that is you dun wan me to read ur blog right?? however i really dunno that reason but i wish that you can invite me to let me view ur blog haiz.. the day was so boring without you:(( hope u happy now rite?? Take care bah.. hope to see ur smile everytime bye!!

20th days without my baby:( ~ Today i wake up @ about 11.30am den i go wash up and watch my tv until 1pm... After that i went to bath and buy food for my sis as she keep disturb me to go down and buy food for her zzz... Dear i wish that u feeling better bah?? It really make me very worry lor however idk wat thing i can actually do for you anymore??:(:( But i hope if u gt any difficulties i will try my best to help you as much as i can de!!! See ur msn post saying that u having fever, cough& sore throat and seem to be quite sad i really sad too u noe ma?? Because i seem to be so useless that i cannot do anything for you now:(:( haiz.. Take care dear~ I LOVE YOU!!!! MUACK!!

19th days without my baby:( ~ Today is feel so tired den my sis woke me up lol.. nvm la it okay de but it seem to be so boring day and idk wat thing i can do haiz.. Dear i blogging nw is because i really miss you:(:( see u so happy good lor still enjoy play ur game hor?? btw idk how are u le but i think i getting better le rite?? Take care wor tonite i going play my skate bah if nt really can die zzz.. Dear i wish you all the best next year wor must jiayou bah!! MUACK I LOVE YOU!!!! BYE:D

18th days without my baby:( ~ Today i wake up at around 12nn and i was like so nervous to get my 'N' Level result. And dear when i wake up, i on my computer and just anyhow surfing the net and dunno wat to do.. After awhile, i went to watch tv and dun have the mood to eat until i got back my result.. hmmm talking about my result it not really good and also not very bad because i just get 17points overall but at least can promote to sec5 lor haiz.. Dear i hope u got see my blog and wish that you will fully recover soon actually i really very worry but idk wat else i can do le:( zzz.. Dear i wish next year we both can be promote to poly so we both must jyjy wor!!! Wish that we still can contact each other after next year lor:) must take care ur health wor!! Muack:D Everyday is so boring and i got nth to do haiz... bye Dear!! I LOVE YOU!!!!

17th days without my baby:( ~ Today i wake up at around 11am and i go on my computer to have a look at ur blog dear:( I was so worry about wat happen to you and i hope you will tell me at least ma:( i really wish to noe how are you already:(:( but i noe you will say fine rite?? haiz.. i hope the guy will take care of you and be with you by your side now bah:( but dear anything can also tell me de okay even i just nth to you nw but at least tell me can?? Dear y so sick still went out and play huh? must rest more de okay? hope you get well and become more energetic wor!! I just feel so lonely nw as no ppl at home and dunno wat to do and where to go:(( zzz.. dear do you noe i so wish that i can message you once nw and ask you how are you:(:( haiz... btw dear tmr is the day we going to get our result and jyjy!!! Dear after i saw ur blog de picture i saw that you never put any single thing of us on your phone anymore le rite? My heart just suddenly so painful lor:(:( I thinking that even our picture and the contact name all gone too rite?? Even you said that you will keep it but i dun think you have already rite?? haiz.. i'm really so upset now and really need you:(:( dear I really Love you till the max!!! Hoping that you can really feel it:(( Btw i just dunno y at the MRT when u with him is so diff when we together huh?? I saw clari blog saying that both all you are living in ur own land but with me u dun even seem wanted to tok much to me and seem to be very scare ppl to see when with me but with him not scare?? why?? And when i with you, you dun seem to let us go out with ur frenz but why he can again?? i really want to noe the reason:(:( haiz.. idk if i thinking too much or not but i dun think i'm thinking too much lor:(( hoping that is not the way i'm thinking now rite?? okay dear you must Takecare hor okay?? bye!

16th days without my baby:( ~ Today is the day we going to checkout already and I wake up around 9am+ but dear when I sleep my mind suddenly think of you and this time round i dream of you again however i really dunno if you going to believe me it true or not but i can swear that what I had said is all truth:( haiz.. I just dream again the days we both together and all the place we gone to even also the place we have never went before:( i keep imagine about it but why you want to just destroy it just like this?:(:(:( Luckily, I never cried out infront of my frenz because i dun wan to let them noe i was sad again and wanted them to happily enjoyed their chalet:( After we checked out, I went to took bus back to Bedok MRT station because i going to meet my mum and sis at sembawang as they wanted to go the temple at there.. But dear i just want to tell you is that after I changed train from green line to red line my emotion was so upset again and hoping to see you even from far i already very happy:( I tried to bear my emotion and it really hurt... Once i reach sembawang, i went to find my mum and sis at the kopitiam to eat my lunch first before we go...After that we went back by cab because i suddenly seem so tried and dun want to walk anymore.. After i reach home, i went to bath and sleep.. suddenly my frenz called me to go down and skate if can so i just try my best to went down to skate because i want at least become more stable before i go to the urban trip organize by ZenEarth members and hoping that i can get some experience after the trip.. I reach home around 12mn+ and went to bath den suddenly just feel to on my computer to update my blog to let you see if you have saw my blog because the purpose of me making this blog is just for you only and wanting to note down my feeling toward you everyday and hoping that you would see my blog de haiz.. Dear you must really take care of urself hor but idk if you recieve my msn de offline message because u didn't reply me back zzz:(:(:( I noe you dun wish to reply me but just abit I will also feel better ma:(:( I hope next time you will reply me lor.. Dear I LOVE YOU LA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Muack!!! Goodnight!!

15th days without my baby:( ~ Dear i'm back from my chalet and i just want to tell you my feeling nw.. Firstly, when we arrived at the chalet and I seem to have nth to do however sitting on the bed and think about you:( I have try not to think about you but you just always be with me on my mind:( haiz.. i really dunno wat else i can do and even doing nth also dam hard:( After awhile we when to have lunch at nearby fast food restaurant.. den I suddenly just had a feeling when i saw the machine with soft toys inside and at that moment i really wish you could be with me to catch the toys which also had been my dream all the while haiz.. At nite, we have our BBQ at the chalet and it seem just quite nice but just cannot be an prefect one because my heart was just so empty:( I always seem to look very happy and always smile but it just for awhile and never last long because inside my heart was so upset and was hurting:( Even when sleep also hard because first day at chalet they all were dam hyper but not me seriously but idk if you really believe me anot:( When around 5am, My frenz and I when to have a jog around east coast park after we when to have breakfast at the coffee shop opposite the park but i just cannot eat and drink maybe i not feeling quite well that time bah zzz... nvm it okay already and we slowly walk back to our chalet and had a bath den went back to have a little more sleep but i also want to tell you that our mission to jog was also to enjoy the sunrise however i just dun have the mood to see:( Dear i just want to tell you that my dream is to enjoy the sunrise/ sunset with my love one which is you!! @ the beach:(:( and also if can to book our own chalet with only two of us but it wouldn't seem to fulfill:(:(: After we wake up, we went to rent bicycle and went back the the coffee shop and to have our lunch however it seem to be a bad day for me because the rain become heavier and we rush back to our chalet.. Once we reach, we heard that one of our frenz fainted maybe he didn't eat or wat bah... After awhile they want to eat something and I cycled on the rain just let them eat.. Den after i returned back, my frenz the one whom fainted wanted to go and eat so i cycled slowly with him to eat again.. when we cycled back, the rain was so heavy and super duper cold but we both got no choice but to keep cycle until we reach our chalet and have a bath.. During at nite, we BBQ some prawn caught by my frenz, toasted bread with scrummber eggs, sweet corn and sweet potatoes. After eating, I just when to sleep while some of my frenz continue to enjoy BBQ and eating the food.

14th days without my baby:( ~ Today i wake up at around 9am+ and i was so dam tired zzz.. dear i on my computer is just to let u noe i going for my chalet le and you must really take good care of urself hor okay? haiz.. actually idk wat to say liao but hope you really happy okay? i noe tmr you going out with ur frenz and him to play pool/ bowling rite?hope you will enjoy and be happy everyday becoz i really love to see you smile.. i will post on 17th again when we get back our 'N' result good luck dear hope everyone can pass and move on the next step.. bye dear I LOVE YOU!!! Muack =D

13th day without baby:( ~ Today i wake up around 11am and seem nth to do haiz.. dear ytd u at msn have a little tok with me but i noe u busy and after you say brb to me i noe will nt have anymore reply:(( i just wish that everyday i can at least tok to you just abit already very happy le however that nt wat i want but it better den no respond to me at all.. btw dear i telling you here that i'm going to chalet at east coast park on the 14th, 15th & 16th but i will still try my best i write down my feeling on a piece of paper and after i return back i will post and let you noe de:(( ytd at msn u also told me nt to link ur blog and ask me hw I noe about the blog as i'm thinking maybe becoz u wan to noe den tok to me rite? actually idk the real reason hopfully is nt wat i'm thinking rite? haiz.. i really dunno wat to do but i will take care of myself de you too okay? anything must tell me can? nvm bah i noe u wouldn't haiz.. take care dear!! I LOVE YOU!!! Muack:D

12th day without my baby:( ~ Today once i wake up i just have a feeling again to look at the memories of us haiz.. after i look i went in to audi have a look becoz i noe u will also break the couple with me haiz.. once i look at it my heart shattered and was wondering why you must really do this to me:(( After i look at ur blog and knowing that you going play pool with them this coming tue but i just dunno why when last time we both together you dunno seem to go out with me so much however with him is like anytime also can go haiz.. i just dunno y you want to treat me like this last time u said you dun wan go out i already try bear countless of time but y with him is diff??
i just really cannot understand what i did wrong in the first place haiz.. i'm nw dam upset and dunno wat to say liao haiz.. hope you really enjoy the rest of days with him happily and enjoyable..
btw i just wan to let you noe but i dun think you going to see it and the thing is my right palm is currently injured but nvm you wouldn't even wan to care me at all le even u said that can be frenz sms me but i didn't receive ur single sms even you have promised me:(:( take care!!

11th days without baby:( ~ Today i wake up about 12+ again haiz.. it was like so bored and lonely without you:( i was so upset when i saw ur photo on ur blog haiz.. you seem to have alot of fun rite? but i just dunno y u last time said u cannot stay out so late but when u with him is so diff when the time we together:(( why?!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hoping to find out some answer haiz.. so stress everyday how to overcome it?? You think i dun wan to forget but it just so dam hard and everyone told me it need time but during this period of time do you noe it really hurt me so much:(( haiz.. dear take care!! I love you:(

10th Day without my baby:( ~ Today i wake up quite late becoz idk wat to do when i wake up haiz.. dear today is ur last day of work le rite? hope you enjoy alot at ur working place bah:( btw today i went out with my frenz but wherever i go just having a feeling that hoping to see u:(( maybe is just my illusion bah zzz.. i hope you now really feel very happy and really enjoy ur days... but just remember to have ur meals regularly bah .. btw nw i writing this post my head abit dizzy haiz.. take care dear:( i love you!!!

9th days without my baby:( ~ Today i woke up at around 10+ but actually wanted to have more rest but suddenly just dun feel like sleeping le after that i on my com to have a look at ur photo baby:( i really miss u la zzz... about 12noon i go meet my frenz den go to east coast celebrate my frenz bday but do you noe when i was at the beach with my frenz wat i'm thinking is just you!!! but i noe u will dun care de rite haiz:(( you noe my wish is to stroll around the park and have alot of fun at the beach also to relax and enjoy with my love one which is you my dear:((( hoping that one day u really can see my blog about how i feel toward you everyday... I really want to say 'I LOVE YOU' to you!!!

8th without my Baby:( ~ Today i wake up at around 10am++ den just feel like opening my com to have a look at my dear de photo but baby do you noe ytd you make me so upset again nt becoz of wat just that in msn u suddenly didn't even reply me back after you say 'BRB' to me den you keep doing ur thing until 1.20am u off without even care about me still waiting for ur reply:( y do u have to do this to me? i hope u really happy and ytd u also told me u make a facebook acc but do you noe it hurt me again? becoz last time when we both together u also never want to use facebook even u noe i'm using it but nw you with that guy u just noe he using it, you also go make one:(( i really wan to noe why?!!!! haiz...btw i just go skate awhile and tmr going out with my classmate bday at east coast:(

7th Days without my Baby:( ~ Today is my last day of work and it was like very tired and bored:( haiz.. dear i hope u will see my blog one day however i saw ur blog just nw le but nvm la take some rest is also good de but my mind was like so confused dun even noe wat to do nw:(( dear do you really forget me? y do you seem to like nth happen before le? do you noe when i saw ur blog the first thing is nt looking at the post is the thing you change in ur blog even ur tag and music all change new one but i noe u dun wan to reply my tag so change de:(( but u noe the very first thing i looked at is the date and not other as i already noe you going change it so before u change i everyday went to see ur blog at least have a look at it until the last moment you changed... once i see the thing changed my heart was like so pain even i noe it going to happen soon out later:(( but do u noe hw much i really miss you when the days you not with me? i even told myself must be strong to stand up and i tried to stand but after awhile i fall down again:((( it really so hurting:((
I really hope the guy really treat you well and willing to sacrifice everything for you:(( haiz..

6th Day without my Baby:( ~ today i wake up around 12+ but you do you noe even i sleeping i wish u can sent an sms to me but last nite i sent you my last message however i prepare it myself for so many days but i cannot bear to just sent out to you becoz i still want to tok to you, sms you but no matter wat i do you just never seem to even reply a single word back nw:( i really dam sad last nite and i saw clari on msn i try chatting with her but i noe wat she going to say too.. haiz i just wish that the guy whom you are with nw really treat you well, teng you as much as he can do everything for you i already happy.. but dear i just wish you will sms/ call me if anything happen can? My last wish is that you remember wat my last message said to you becoz i have been typing this message for the whole nite and hw the feeling inside me:( baby i really still love you so much but i hoping you will remember me and the days we together however idk if you really enjoy the days together with me ma but just wish you nw really happy and dun wan you to be hurt by other:( dear i nw wrote this feeling here is becoz i wish one day you really view my blog and you still noe hw my everyday also my feeling toward you.. i really dun wish to just forget you like this:( today i feel the moment when we hug and kiss becoz i really love the sweetness in ur mouth and while i thinking i really going cry:( i never been good since the days you ask me can we just be frenz becoz i already noe the ans:((

5th Day without my Baby:( ~ Dear i so wish to sms you de but i just noe you wouldn't reply me becoz u didn't even reply me at nite however you say that you will sms me but do you noe that i just keep hoping to recieve your sms but y can't? if you at least sms me i wouldn't feel that sad but u didn't:( I today go my frenz house even thought they keep telling me nt to think so much but do you think is that easy just to like this nt to think ma? you should understand me and noe wat i am thinking and wat my feeling nw:(

4th Day without my Baby:( ~ today i didn't go to work again just to wait for you to reply me:( i waited for a long until u finally tell me ' i just wake up but may not be smsing you becoz u going to meet ur frenz clari. But i think that when u outside cannot sms me huh? i can feel that you just dun wan to sms me anymore even you promise me you will still sms me:( i hope that u would really remember the days we are together and give me another chance to love you again the next time. I will be waiting for you all the time until the day i left this world de:( however u sms is just one sentence or even lesser to seem like you are daoing me:( wat did i do to make you treat me like this? i had cried today and when back to sleep while waiting for you sms me but you never:( y must you do this to me.. it really hurt me alot you noe?

3rd Day without Baby:( ~ today when i wake up i just dunno wat i going to do next becoz my life is just like a big gap in between us but dear i wish to tell u that i wouldn't just give up on you just like that. i just went to work as usual but everyone at work didn't tok to me becoz i look like not having an emotion on my face but wat can i do rite? i just miss you but u dun seem to feel it:( i wait for u at nite just to recieve one sms from you but you didn't even bother to reply me:(

2nd Day without my baby:( ~ i have a hard tough day becoz when i wake up my mind is all about you my baby but i will just gt a feeling you will just drift away from me as you told me u like the guy and at nite you told me that you already with him together le:( i was like very sad feeling really down at the moment:( My work never since to be doing well ever you break up with me:(
but do you noe why i when to work? Is to let you feel happy wanting to bring you around having our happiest moment but y cannot u just stay by me?

1st day without my baby:( ~since we break up the day at the carpark with ur frenz around i really dun wish to de.. but do you noe i feeling really so upset however i bear the pain in my heart just cannot let you go that day but you just keep crying so i left no choice:( I didn't even go for work that day becoz i just no mood and my mind is all just about you my baby!! i went to my frenz house just to cool down and cannot even sleep for the whole nite you noe ma.. you really have hurt me so much that i dun noe what else i can do for you le:( but if u wan me do wat i willing to do for you de..